intehflow is 5!!!

Wowz, it has been sometime.

I hardly wrote last year and I guess I am also not in the state at this moment to write much.

Well, let's wait and see how things go ...

All is well.

The Man in the Arena

It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.

-- Theodore Roosevelt (23 April 1910)

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

-- William Ernest Henley

Here we go again

6 more months ...

to freedom?

And the master would say "Show me the chains."

Review of Targets for 2009

Sad to say, I have yet to hit most of them.

I had a good first few months, doing my work, eating better and gaining speed. Halfway through the year, there was a slip. No excuses about it ...

2010 is here and it's time to buck up again.

"I have a dream ..."

And I still have a dream.

A little review

Today will be my last match for the season this year. I had a good 9 matches and won 3. Not too impressive a record but I guess it was a marked improvement from the year before.

Tonight's game against CSC was pretty close. Lost 2-3, 7-9 in the 5th set. I took too long to get into the grove and was easily unsettled whenever the pace picked up. Was nervy at the T and tended to move before my opponent hit. As such when he increased the pace or held the shot a bit longer, I would have problems.

Strangely, the mind always latches onto that one weakness instead of focusing on the many things one can do well or one should keep on doing. I mean I am not exactly fast at this point of time but I am not that slow ... If I were to just wait confidently at the T, watch and be ready, I should be able to get to all shots. But yet, the mind plays the devil and rehashes my lack of speed to a point that I get really anxious when I am at the T or feel too lethargic and slow to move smoothly. Oh well ... something I got to work on.

To reaffirm that I am light and I can reach all the shots. I am always on my toes and ready for the next shot. I watch the ball and I respond fast.

I guess the only comforting thing today was that my opponent commented I did much better than last year. He asked whether I was the same slightly bigger girl who played against them at NEA last year. Said I looked fitter and moved better.

Oh well ... wait till these guys see me again next year!

ps: btw, I lost the weight challenge to my brother. I can't believe it. He still looks the same! Well, however I do have some way to go before I return to my probably fittest state before I left for the States.

85, 77, 79, 79, 82, 73

Magical numbers they are.

And 66 too.

As we work towards 1304. =)